Realization...

As evidenced by my earlier, ranting post - I had a rough day. Obviously the house stuff has me overwhelmed and depressed. And, other than folding some laundry, I didn't get much accomplished today. But I did color my hair, and got my nails done tonight. (Joey had taken me to get acrylics done for Mother's Day, and I had them filled, and painted tonight.) I've been admiring my nails all evening, and I had the sudden realization why those 'surfacey' items were important to me today. I think that with the feeling of helplessness that is bearing down on me right now, I had a much stronger need to 'control' some tangible things. My hair, makeup and nails are things that reinforce my feelings of femininity and confidence, and right now that is one area I can realistically boost. So, now I'm gonna stop feeling bad about "primping" today; and thank the Lord for inspiring some incredible person to invent extra shine hair color, undereye concealer and nail polish!